Well with a little trepidation and a lot of concerns about whether we were ready for this big step and whether it was the best thing for all of us, honestly i had no reservations at all it was so clear to me that we were all better together than apart. All under one roof with no exit strategy we started a very important bond building god centered love motivated time together. life was cramped and money was always tight but what a wonderful time for us. Shawnie cooked all the time and usually created this fantastic feasts out of little or nothing, she really enjoyed serving us with love this way. all the traditions that we started continued and we flourished more and more every day. This whole time every Sunday we joyfully went to church. the anointing and love we have sweetly received has and is the foundation of everything that is important to us. And yes there existed some contradiction in our relationship together and with Christ. at some point at about the same time we both were convicted that we should abstain from sex until we could be right in the eyes of god. we have not been perfect but have done pretty well, there is know condemnation in Christ. I believe he does examine our hearts and treats fairly. Shawnie and i have seen so many miracles all around us not to believe that we were and still are living under the favor of God. We all spent so much time together often riding around in the car playing our favorite cd's and songs all of belting out so loudly. Shawnie the great multi- tasking mother remembered the number of each track. we would often request one or the others favorite track as a nice gesture and sing along with them as an act of love, Kobe was really keen to this and would always announce whose song were currently playing. Kobe is likely the most amazing beautiful intuitive four year old i have ever known, which is not an easy thing to say because Bryan was simply remarkarble when he was younger. I guess they are both exceptional but very different, Kobe recent past included some very challenging days he had to survive before i met him, at first when i started spend some time with him, he was so needy and demanding and appeared to have little self control. fast forward a few months and this little angel was secure out our house no matter who was home, Mom was always tops on his list that's for sure, but he knew he was loved. he also began to really display an honest desire to do the right thing which i believe was simply amazing, think of any four year old you know and honestly tell me if you can say that. when i first got around Him jabbered a lot at times about his Dad, but over time mention of his Dad became less and less. Finally he started to ask if it was ok to call me Dad and tried that name out for awhile and eventually more often than not i here, Daddy. Kobe made that decision not me it would not matter if he ever called me Dad i already have four sons, i was very touched though that he did. Kobe's transformation daily for shawnie and i was a true demonstration of awe and wonder. We humbly are motivated by Love in all we do, but we have been blown away so many times by the power of Love, i don't know how many times we said we must be doing something right as we watched both boys