well the party was one of many turning points on this incredible journey. it was about two weeks later and my son Bryan started his Christmas break and since i work swing shift he would be home alone every night and even though he is very responsible Shawnie and i decided it would be better if an adult was here, So Shawnie and Kobe kinda moved in. this would really begin the process of solidifying our family. we had know idea really but it just seemed right Kobe was much better he calmed down alot and bryan and Shawnie started developing there own special bond, Shawnie adores Bryan so much and literally views him just same way she does Kobe. and i also really do Love Kobe the same way and maybe because i am a little older now and i don't have to contend with so many kids anymore i really enjoyed all the time i spent with him. Shawnie and i started to really get closer and began some traditions we fondly recall all the time even to this day. every night no matter when i got home and i often did have to work late she would always leave me instructions to wake her before i got in the shower so she could get up and heat up my dinner and talk to me while i ate and more often than not she would ask if i wanted her to make some coffee because we needed a little go juice so we could stay up and talk about a million things quite often till four or five in the morning we would always comment that it had gone by so fast and it did not seem so late, we spent endless hours on the porch drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes our conversation invaribly centered on God and the kids. we coined a few phrases which to us describe everything that is important to us and we were so wholeheartdly in agreement about the important stuff. " do the right thing " which was our genearal all purpose directive and always our intention. " Love Always Wins" which describes our heart and is the power by which our lives are transformed with are Kids with God with each other we added " unconditional love always wins" and we believe tha the ability to love that way is God given and so powerful.. I had Loved many times in my Life but never this way i would sacrifice anything for my little foursome and espiacially my little princess. we to this point had never had a fight or even a disagreement we really never had any real tension between us, Shawnie had always worked and often was the sole bread winner in her past relationships. this was not easy for her to rely solely on me, but i never had an issue with this. she had way too much to do with her court cases and the boys to worry about it. I also think it was important for her to see that real love is has nothing to do with a job. I told Shawnie that i loved her because all the real important stuff was alredy there. I also told her no mater how long she went away i woulde wait for her, i have spent all my life dressing up impostors to be my princess, now i had found the real deal so i was done looking amen