Lovve Always Wins God's Gift

LOVE ALWAYS WINS it has been an amazing journey so far. I have no idea were it ends. I do know what is central to it all is Jesus and my little princess who is now in jail. Only about seven more months to go and i will finally be able to hold her and kiss her again. last week I was writing her my usual large batch of postcards and was extremely moved by the holy spirit last week as I thought about her a lot fervent prayer through out my week. She called me about twenty minutes ago and was so touched by the perfect timing of what i rote one of my letters to the day she was having today. I wrote that letter days ago. this has happened now so many times it no longer surprises us one bit. love always wins is our phrase. Tonight we chuckled and reminisced over a memory of our son Kobe and cooking pancakes. Shawnie and really have not been together that long, but it seems like we have inexhaustible supply of memories we cherish. We really are transported back together every time we share them together. Every Sunday Morning I go down to visit her in the jail more often than not I arrive tired with blood shot eyes and will usually have to wait over an hour for them to bring her up to me, but the instant I see her I forget about everything else and the whole time we have to spend together I am unaware of anyone else around me even though the room is loud and full of about thirty other prisoners and there guests. My nickname for her is princess and I rally look at her that way. My Love journey has brought me so far from any place that ever thought existed. I love her so fully and completely without one ounce of reservation. Believe or not but even though she has been away for five months now i literally only have eyes for her, not even a passing thought of any other female. The absolute freedom i have is beyond description. My love for her grows and grows all the time. i believe that Love real love comes from God and God alone we as humans do not posses the capacity to live, love and sacrifice this way. So naturally my relationship with my creator Jesus Christ and the holy spirit also is so deep and meaningful to me that often i am moved to tears just by the holy spirits presence. I have learned to be pretty faithful to it's guidance in my life. He has over the last month brought over twenty different people across my path most of them women that i have shared a beautiful message of love and freedom. He has gifted me with this vision or insight to there pain and shame. I have been instructed to reveal to them how beautiful they are and it's OK for them to themselves and they are not defined by the lies and betrayal's of there past. These encounters are sometimes brief and sometimes rather Lengthy interchanges, Some of these people i knew casually but most of them i have never met and most of them i have only seen once. I always remind them they are so much better than who they think they are which my pastor like to say. It was not many months ago all i was concerned about was a very small group of people close to me. Today the love i have for so many different people is astounding and even though i share such a beautiful message and speak i rather large circles i am not very popular so many lack the courage to shed the shackles of the lies that define them. I am really not bothered or concerned in the least bit by this because i am doing what my father wants me to do. True Love is real and does exist our hearts crave and it is easy but we will have to strip naked and leave behind everything we have ever known and cold and naked we eventually come face to face with all are fears and then we have summon all the courage we have ever had and keep walking forward. The fear finally has to be left behind too and then we will draw as close to our creator as we have ever been. When we say to him you all of me it at least for me required leaving behind everything. So in the service of my lord and savior as a product of My decision to love and love and love i find myself in the service to the one who is love. Love always wins

who are you really

Who are you really? Does that answer depend on the day and your current circumstances. In so many cases that likely is true if we are honest with ourselves, We so often chase some many different things to satisfy us and fulfill us don't we. true love better job, car, house, Friends. Or is it respect and recognition. Does it matter if we are well liked or not. Does it matter if anyone thinks we are smart, or beautiful. today i am without a Job. I was fired on Monday. Yes a hardship but does that change who i am or what i am worth ? I have discovered that i am who i am, Nothing more Nothing less. It is enough i am loved by some very exceptional people nobody more cherished than my little princess Shawnie who from the very beginning saw me for exactly who i am, And loved me anyways. The real beautiful aspect is she is the first woman who also saw the remarkable gifts i have to give too. She knows me better than any woman i have ever been with and Loves me more every day. She has been able to see first hand that i do truly have a remarkable gift to Love. She knows and has completely captured my heart an i do believe receives that Love completely. Neither one of us are perfect and who is ? it does become the reality of Love that you do love the whole package. You must have two honest and willing participants that have the courage to really let true love exist. Love always wins and it is unconditional love which really is the only description of Love that makes any sense at all. the long list of the constant upheaval that i call my life finds with more peace than i have ever known before. Divorce, money troubles my little princess is still eight months away from getting a kiss from me, her son who i adore is prevented from seeing for over the last three months with no end of that in sight. Yes very daunting for sure, but Jesus Christ is refining me and using me to share with so many they are precious and beautiful just the way they are, Today i trust Jesus and the holy spirit to guide and direct my life to help many people find and receive a love that transforms lives. Evey step and every breath i take bring me closer and closer to the only one that matters and what he desires to share withe everyone is so needed by all. Love. Yes Love always wins

perfect just the way you are

If God is Love. If we are made in the likeness of god. Then our human capacity to Love is far greater than we can imagine, we will never achieve anything close to how Jesus Loves us buy we can reach to far greater heights than we think. Lately the holy spirit has put me in front of so many different people to share one sincere and honest message. You are perfect just the way you are and are precious in the eyes of the Lord. at least a half dozen people have been moved to tears when i have shared this with them. Oddly there is also many who really don't want to hear this at all. I know the idea of being precious personally was a hard one for me. i have lived most of my life believing that there was something wrong with me. i was never able to achieve any relief from this image of myself. my belief was predicated on a lie. i of course never achieved anything close to perfection. i stumbled and failed anguished and internalized these things tried harder was ashamed and hid myself from others. all of this became a vicious circle that imprisoned me and choked me off from any real peace in my life. through some very eye opening and difficult challenges i saw that right or wrong God made me this way. I decided honesty and transparency would be my creed and that is just what i have done it has brought me so far from were i began that i literally don't recognize myself anymore. i discovered that i have been put on this earth To Love and love very deeply all by power of the Holy Spirit. God brought me a little princess gave me one charge which is to Love her and oh boy how i do love her. but his other purpose was to bring out further and further to discover him so personally that i understand so much better how much he loves me, and then i turn how much he loves everyone else too. i have a mission today as the spirit leads me to take every opportunity to share this truth to as many people as i can. i have been given the vision to see those that looked like me they appear lonely and lost. They are striving to repair something that is not broken namely themselves. Don't be mistaken we will always fall short of the glory of God but we are perfectly suited for life in our imperfection god never wanted us perfect. i believe our struggles hardships and trials are actually our blessings because they so strongly show us that we need a savior so anything that can remind of that fact is a blessing. i embrace all that draws me to him. The holy spirit is alive and real my companion, confidant and guide. through this broken and imperfect vessel as long as trust him he does great things. May they God of Hope give you all joy and peace as you trust in Him, by power of the holy spirit. you are equipped to do all things thru him just as you are. lean on him cast off the shackles of all the lies enter the light and enjoy real joy and peace.