Lovve Always Wins God's Gift

LOVE ALWAYS WINS it has been an amazing journey so far. I have no idea were it ends. I do know what is central to it all is Jesus and my little princess who is now in jail. Only about seven more months to go and i will finally be able to hold her and kiss her again. last week I was writing her my usual large batch of postcards and was extremely moved by the holy spirit last week as I thought about her a lot fervent prayer through out my week. She called me about twenty minutes ago and was so touched by the perfect timing of what i rote one of my letters to the day she was having today. I wrote that letter days ago. this has happened now so many times it no longer surprises us one bit. love always wins is our phrase. Tonight we chuckled and reminisced over a memory of our son Kobe and cooking pancakes. Shawnie and really have not been together that long, but it seems like we have inexhaustible supply of memories we cherish. We really are transported back together every time we share them together. Every Sunday Morning I go down to visit her in the jail more often than not I arrive tired with blood shot eyes and will usually have to wait over an hour for them to bring her up to me, but the instant I see her I forget about everything else and the whole time we have to spend together I am unaware of anyone else around me even though the room is loud and full of about thirty other prisoners and there guests. My nickname for her is princess and I rally look at her that way. My Love journey has brought me so far from any place that ever thought existed. I love her so fully and completely without one ounce of reservation. Believe or not but even though she has been away for five months now i literally only have eyes for her, not even a passing thought of any other female. The absolute freedom i have is beyond description. My love for her grows and grows all the time. i believe that Love real love comes from God and God alone we as humans do not posses the capacity to live, love and sacrifice this way. So naturally my relationship with my creator Jesus Christ and the holy spirit also is so deep and meaningful to me that often i am moved to tears just by the holy spirits presence. I have learned to be pretty faithful to it's guidance in my life. He has over the last month brought over twenty different people across my path most of them women that i have shared a beautiful message of love and freedom. He has gifted me with this vision or insight to there pain and shame. I have been instructed to reveal to them how beautiful they are and it's OK for them to themselves and they are not defined by the lies and betrayal's of there past. These encounters are sometimes brief and sometimes rather Lengthy interchanges, Some of these people i knew casually but most of them i have never met and most of them i have only seen once. I always remind them they are so much better than who they think they are which my pastor like to say. It was not many months ago all i was concerned about was a very small group of people close to me. Today the love i have for so many different people is astounding and even though i share such a beautiful message and speak i rather large circles i am not very popular so many lack the courage to shed the shackles of the lies that define them. I am really not bothered or concerned in the least bit by this because i am doing what my father wants me to do. True Love is real and does exist our hearts crave and it is easy but we will have to strip naked and leave behind everything we have ever known and cold and naked we eventually come face to face with all are fears and then we have summon all the courage we have ever had and keep walking forward. The fear finally has to be left behind too and then we will draw as close to our creator as we have ever been. When we say to him you all of me it at least for me required leaving behind everything. So in the service of my lord and savior as a product of My decision to love and love and love i find myself in the service to the one who is love. Love always wins