Courage

Are we going to live a life defined the culmination of our experiences or are we going to have enough courage to shed the shackles of our past and really embrace who we really are? It seems like an easy question to answer, and it is, but the process application and implications of this decision will challenge us in so many different ways. We are then ultimately responsible and accountable for so much of what and where we are at. This truth often hurts to much to embrace and it creates a belief system that no matter how limiting it is has been our comfortable companion for a very long time. It is built on the tragic failures in our life of so many people through out are lives that we thought loved us. Yes they did fail us sometimes painfully and tragically. Maybe even victimized us. But at whatever age you now sit we must ask how long are we going to allow these memories to define us. Every single one of them is predicated on a lie. The sobering conclusion we usually draw from all of this is that we are flawed an inadequate. This is by far the biggest misconception we Will ever carry around with us. It affects every single fabric of our lives all of our relationships, careers. It also prevents us in so many ways from fully and completely loving and enjoying God because we view ourselves as flawed and unlovable.Every single one of us is precious is perfect in the eyes of our creator. In our imperfection we are perfectly suited for the journey he has planned for us. God wanted me this way in all my messy humanness. He is very fond of me. Take me or leave God loves me just the way i am. " I know the plans i have for you declares the lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jer: 29:11 Read that over and over and pay attention to what your mind says if it reels off a bunch of defeating and negative responses, if fear enters your being. If you start creating a list of conditions that have to be met in order for this to be true. It has revealed that you are stuck in a self created hell that doesn't really allow the true sunlight of the spirit in. You will be prevented from enjoying peace and joy in your life. It's not that it isn't true it's that you will not allow it. That kind of unconditionally loving relationship between a man and a woman will always escape and the longing for it will torment you forever. Courage is not the absence of fear, but it is being afraid and doing it anyways. If you think you will better yourself to a point that you will walk out of the darkness unafraid i believe you will live in the darkness forever. I enjoy that kind of Real Love for the first time in my life. It's messy and complicated, beautiful and amazing. It has brought on a journey were i am constantly trying to reveal and be rid of more and more of me because every time i do i can Love my Princess and Jesus more. Every step has not been easy but every single one of them has been so worthwhile because every part of me yearns desires to love more everyday.