For Kobe's Sake

For Kobe's sake, I am in Love with a little princess named Shawnie. She will be released from the Maricopa county jail after serving in that hell hole for a year. We are so close now I can almost taste it. Over the last couple of weeks the reports we have received about her Five year old son Kobe have been a little disturbing. He has been so strong for so long. He has shown such tremendous courage through out most of this long journey. We are near the end and God bless his heart but he is crumbling a bit, he has regressed in many ways currently. I do not blame him one bit and am so proud of him. After talking with Shawnie earlier today it all hit me. We have taken so many body blows from life this year it would be understandable if we were rattled and afraid, but for Kobe's sake he deserves our best, and our best apart from God is not good enough. He deserves the absolute Best we have. It will only come from our faithfulness and trust In our Lord. Bryan is only sixteen, But for Bryan's sake he deserves nothing short of our best. Shawnie and I are grown and have had to live with the consequences of many of our own mistakes, but for the sake of Shawnie and I we deserve nothing less than our best, and apart from God our best is not good enough. For the sake of all those who will cross our path in the future they deserve nothing less than our best. It all begins though with a little Five year old who has spent most of his life wondering why he was not enough and why they do not come around any more. Starting in a little over a month Shawnie and I have an opportunity to rewrite this little boys legacy. Will we contribute another chapter of pain disappointment and loss to this precious little ones existence. If we don't do the right thing and surrender it all to the one most high God in all that we do we are not going to show up with our best and with the damage that has already been done to this little boy we will be signing his death sentence. Sobering but true. All day I have kept repeating Three words " For Kobe's Sake" even though it starts in my mind with Kobe it is for all our sakes, we were all little and precious just like him. we also deserved the best someone had to offer and were shortchanged by those around us. How long will we let this go on. can we really forgive those who failed us if when presented with the solution we find we did the exact same thing. Can we ask for forgiveness from our past mistakes even though we continue to do the same thing over and over. With my eyes wide open this time. I will not be able to live with myself if I don't give Kobe my best, God' best this time. Along with that includes My son Bryan and all my other children, also Shawnie and myself we deserve some one's best and we are in a position to do that Not only for ourselves but every one we meet because they were just like us and deserved the best too. Love Always Wins